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I've been meaning to update for about a week, but I've had a lot to say, or I think I do, and I guess I haven't felt like putting it all into words.
Where to start... the last time I wrote was New Years, and I was having a pretty bad day. I ended up having 4 bad days, actually, all in a row. But I guess things have looked up since then. It's winter and it's cold and dark, so despite my best efforts, sometimes I have a bad day. I don't know what I can do about that. Today wasn't so hot, but let's forget about it for now.
You'd think I would be fine, since I apparently have been busy hanging out with many many friends. Monday the 3rd was Susan's birthday, so went to The Elephant Walk, which has a great reputation. I didn't enjoy it so much though (or at least as much as it cost). I later learned (thanks to Jeff at work) that I needed to eat from the Cambodian side of the menu as opposed to the French side. I think I just need to avoid French food in general out here - clearly it's not good. Then the next day, I had dinner with Karen. We were hunting for Chinese food, but failed, so ended up eating at The Joshua Tree in Davis Square. I'd had drinks there before, but not food - it was decent pub food. That weekend, Eric was in town, so Friday night we went to Changsho (Chinese food for Karen, finally!), which I thought was really really good - we had crab rangoons and mango chicken and some sort of lamb and something else - lo mein I think. And then Saturday morning was more Chinese food - we went for Dim Sum in Chinatown. We were eating with Eric's friend Heather and her med school friends, and thank goodness there was someone who knew the language! It makes Dim Sum so much easier. And then I was ready to take a long nap....
Except of course I didn't get to. Susan called, and it turned out that Kat was in town for the hockey game. So, I went to a movie in Harvard Square with them and friends... Spanglish, which I thought was not very good. Afterwards, we went to John Harvard's for dinner. Now, I've eaten at John Harvard's many times, but I was not prepared for the site that greeted me.... a sea of carnelian and white. Apparently, John Harvard's is THE place to go if you're a Cornellian before the Cornell-Harvard hockey game out here at "Lynah East." I even was running into people I know (Ben, Tanya, Kate, Alex)! The meal was complete with several call and response "Harvard Sucks!" chants and one "Let's Go Red!" chant. Part of me swelled with pride for my obnoxious former classmates, part of me was insanely jealous that I didn't have tickets to the game, and part of me felt so sorry for the other patrons of the restaurant.
Instead of hockey, I got to play poker since Eric was still in town. Karen, Eric, Karen's roommate Liz, Liz's boyfriend Joe and Herb all came over to play. I did well in regular play, particularly given that I hadn't played in a long time (though none of us had). I did not do well in tournament play, though, but by that time I had more than a half of a bottle of wine in me. After the game, Herb tried to rope me into a discussion about politics, particularly Social Security, and of course he succeeded. Ugh. A few days later he informed that while he disagrees with my beliefs and thinks I'm hypocritical, I am "internally consistent" and that's something. All right then.
Last week was less busy. I went over to hang out with Jeff and Kristen because they had Christmas presents for me. Jeff apparently picked them out (almost) all by himself and wrapped them himself - impressive. They got me a fondue pot and a wine and cheese set minus the wine and cheese - a cheese board and spreaders and coasters and wine charms, with a wine motif. Very nice present. I also gave the boys the rest of their present - two bottles of Finger Lakes wine and Scattergories - and Herb gave me my Christmas present from him, a gold candle set (very pretty). Susan came over to watch Alias and we all ended up hanging out and having a bottle of wine, because Herb wanted to use his new rabbit cork screw. It was nice to spend time with the boys. I of course got to see them again this past Saturday for Herb's birthday shindig. Small group there, but all happy people, including Eric who came down again and Jenny who drove into Boston for the weekend. There was wine and a shot of Jameson. Now, I like the smell of whiskey, but generally don't like to shoot it - except the Jameson was REALLY smooth. I could get used to that. Too bad it's so expensive and I have no money.
In other news, I'm addicted to Lost and 24 now. I blame Dan and Susan, respectively. And Lost makes me want to read about epistemology and John Locke (someone please don't tell Herb). I know, it's really sad. Ohh, and for those who thought it would never happen.... Alias and The West Wing are on at the same time now and I have chosen Alias over The West Wing. I'll allow some time for your gasps to subside..... okay. Don't fear, though - I've been downloading The West Wing episodes via BitTorrent so I'm not actually missing them, just watching them a few days late.
I've also heard from a half dozen or so people from high school in the past month or so, in some form or another, be it Thefacebook (most likely medium) or IM. It's somewhat surreal, but makes me wonder how other people from high school are doing. Are they happy, working, living, still in school, making the best of life, etc... I guess I don't want to know about everyone, but there are definitely people who I've lost touch with that I'm curious about.
So that was the last 2+ weeks in a nutshell. I learned, for the millionth time, that I am incapable of sleeping after drinking. It made for another two wasted Sundays. And I really miss poker. It's not just the game, it's the camaraderie and the comfort and being able to look forward to something each week, which is sometimes helpful in getting me through tougher times. Too bad Karen is the only one whose willing to play every week and lives here. Maybe I'll try and at least get Susan and Kristen organized enough to have biweekly dinners, with would be something. I want to do a fondue night, since Susan and I both have fondue pots now, so we could do fondue dinner and dessert (read: chocolate).
I've also had a lot on my mind, both personally and professionally. Work has been really busy, and it can be frustrating sometimes. I know that I'm doing well and getting through the work and my superiors are pleased with me. And I'm generally happy, just some things bother me. I keep looking towards the future, and because I'm not sure where exactly the company is going right now, I'm a little uneasy at times. It's probably good to look forward to the future, though. I've been trying to not assess too much until after my review, which will be whenever Jeff can pin down Andrew. I've been there 6 months, can you believe that?
As far as personal stuff.... I'm still trying to sort through months of depression, so you'll have to excuse me if I'm sometimes now. For awhile last week, I was having realizations everyday, which was good but somewhat overwhelming at times. My revelations of course usually leave me feeling partly good and partly ashamed or sad. I feel like I took one more step towards resolving a bunch of it this weekend, though I need some feedback to know for sure. I've also been making mental notes about the steps I've taken to make myself better and feel better, and how I know things have gotten better and what the signs were. I'm hoping that if I spend endless quantities of time sorting through all of this, then maybe I won't have to go through anything like that again. Or if something does happen, and things do happen, maybe I can crawl my way out of it sooner. One can hope.
Hmm, this is probably long enough now. I'll try not to be so long in writing next time (and then I don't have to write such long entries).
- Lizzardie, at 8:01 PM
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