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Monday, April 07, 2003
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So... I took off for the weekend. A very good decision on my part. I had a lot of fun, relaxed a lot, spent time with a friend... where I went, who I spent time with, doesn't really matter. The important thing is that what I really needed to relieve the absolutely horrible mood I'd been in, to give me my hope and energy and optimism back, was to be selfish this weekend. No AIM, my cell phone was off, I was away from Ithaca and everything it is. And it felt really good. And, despite being so so tired right now, I feel really good and refreshed and happy. There was nothing spectacular about the weekend - it consisted of some sleep, eating, seeing a movie (Phone Booth, it's pretty good, though the ending was weird and I didn't like the hookers) and watching a lot of TV. And even though I could have done those same things in Ithaca, it was the fact that I wasn't in Ithaca that made it better. I apologize to everyone in Ithaca for taking off without telling you that I was or where I was going. In hindsight, I should have left a message on the whiteboard saying I had left and would be back on Sunday. But knowing me, I would have left a message saying I would be back Sunday afternoon, which is when I planned on getting back, when instead I arrived back here at 2:30am. Anyway, my goal was not to test you all, as Vinny said, nor I am really trying to be mysterious. It's just I'd rather everyone, if they're going to think about it at all, think about how I was able to get away and get refreshed, not about where I went and why I chose that place to go. And, despite all the work I had, it all turned out okay. My paper that is due in 40 minutes is done and printed (I wrote the whole thing this morning) and I was able to get my contribution for my group project in (by email, from my undisclosed location). All while getting more than 6 hours of sleep last night, which is probably more than I deserved. So yay for me knowing exactly what I needed and not letting myself mope around for weeks and weeks. I can't stand the feeling of being ready to burst into tears at any moment, with the slightest set-off, and that feeling is gone. Good riddance! =)
- Lizzardie, at 1:59 PM
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