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It's just been one of those days.... I've felt really out of it today. I'm not really sure why, because nothing special happened to put me in a bad mood. I guess I could blame it on my impending prelims, but I'm not too worried about them. Acctng will be easy, as long as I check my arithmetic (confession: while I'm pretty good at calculus, I think I forgot how to add and subtract long ago). And stats - well, I have a day to study yet and we haven't really gone over THAT much that's new material. So, no, I don't think it's the prelims.
I think it's more that I'm bored. There's, like, no one around. For the first time, I have very unsocial roommates - not cool, because I need more human reaction in a day. Not too many of my friends are around right now, either. It's that off time where everyone seems to be home for a couple weeks before settling in here for the summer. I, on the other hand, have had no break. There are the other engineers, but I swear, it feels like high school again. Small classes, where I fit in, but don't fit in. I mean, the other engineers are nice and everything, but being a newcomer, I don't really feel like I gel with them. I can't really explain it, I guess.
Perhaps this feeling of dread comes from the fact that for the first time I can remember, I have a negative amount of money. Not good, not good at all. I'll be fine once loans come through, but I owe a couple people money and I have a rather large credit card payment due next week. Hopefully it will all work out. Had to ask my parents for money - they're going to come through, but it was very painful on my ego (I guess - it was painful somehow) to ask. Right now, I'm just trusting that everything will work out.
I ran into Allison the other day. She's living with Ryoko this summer, who was at Shirley's graduation party (she was Shirley's sister's roommate this past year). I swear, directly or indirectly, PSP is connected to everyone I know on campus. Given that there are 13,000 undergrads on campus, and that I know only a tiny fraction of these people, I find this slightly eerie (spelled correctly this time, Jaclyn). I guess the world really is much smaller than I think it is, even here at Cornell.
- Lizzardie, at 12:25 AM
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